i’m not taking my chains off to get in the club

I’m not taking my chains off to get into the club. I just won’t go. I don’t need to take my chain off. I don’t want to take my chains off. if I can’t take my chains off, I refuse to walk in there. that means I have to strip parts of myself in order to go. I won’t. if I know a place is like that, and doesn’t know my character: then I don’t need to be there. I’m keeping everything in. let me in, as I am. I am iconic. I am my own person. I am the original blueprint. I did not get my personality off of the internet. I am someone in real life. I refuse to take my chains off. I refuse to be in rooms where I am not appreciated. I’d rather play dead to others than have to fake a smile. I’d rather love from a distance. I won’t be in rooms where slick shi is said to me. I refuse to be anything other than myself. my truth is a truth that clears up misconceptions because my truth is complex + simplistic at the same time. the rumors are for a good reason: I am who I say I am, and people get mad. I am someone outside of the internet as a tool, and a sphere. I refuse to allow people to source my real life and online identity without compensation or credit. I will come for you to get what is mine, in some way or another. major places/people have copied me for YEARS as I’ve sat back, + watched my work get said louder. I’ve always been that person. 

I’ve never needed anyone to validate me. God is my validation. and A$AP Yams found me when we were nobodies without me hollering first. that was all the validation in this lifetime that I personally ever needed for this lifetime. I don’t need anything else, after that: when we were both starting out. I have always been that person. I don’t need a stamp of approval. I will continue to be THAT artist, loved one, and friend. I will continue to praise God in the wilderness, and in the promised land. in the enslavement, and in the kingdom positions. I’ve been in the lions den, and i’ve also been in the king’s court advising kings. I understand the lowest position, and I haven’t even seen the highest of my lifetime YET. 

lately I have to remind myself that when I turn off the screen, the type of things I do and my very own existence is the light of God’s creativity in itself. I don’t need to prove anything to you. I don’t need to. it is just a rejection wound. people are so used to fake packaged as real, that when you are real packaged as real, you’re broken down + rejected for the fake packaged as real. and the fake packaged as real gets the credit, the currency in many forms for copying you + branding your energetic signature as THEIR newfound creativity. I’m still going to exist regardless. and the mask is going to come off, and i’m going to get the glory for staying true to God as well as myself one day. till then, i’m just going to stay true to God during my walk in the wilderness. I want to make it to the promised land. I will not disobey you in the promised land, Ya’Allaha. I will continue to build myself in you, and stay true to you.